Duluth 

Being on the road has been such a fun adventure! Week 2 full time is underway and I’ve already learned so much. Duluth has been beautiful and cold. The snow is the perfect snow for snowmen making and the large stacks of it are hiding places for my snowpup. Albus is having a blast and keeps digging in the snow and running like a mad man. Sam and I took him to the Target lot so he could let loose in fresh snow piles without any traffic concerns (it was 9pm). 


Duluth has a port for large ships to dock and on Sunday we went on a walk with Albus and got to see a ship come in. Tons of people were there to witness the arrival; we believe they were loved ones of some of the crew members.


 I love eating local food and we’ve tried a few different places. The Duluth Grill is next to our motel and we ate there twice. The first time I got an omelet with everything and a cinnamon roll. The omelet was delicious and the cinnamon roll was tasty as well. However, JJ’s in COMO has the best cinnamon roll I’ve ever tasted. (Go there and try it). The second time I got the chicken fried pancake. The pancake was cooked with corn and bacon on the inside topped with fried chicken and maple bacon syrup. The pancake was salty & sweet and reminded me of cornbread. The chicken wasn’t good, but I’d still go back to try other things. We also ate at Grizzly’s Wood-Fire Grill. I had the wood-fire chicken sandwich with avocado. I love chicken and I love avocado & you can never go wrong with the two paired together. 


So far this trip I’ve learned:

  • 1) Albus loves snow as much, if not more than I do 
  • 2) Being married has been my greatest and most favorite adventure thus far 
  • 3) Sam doesn’t know how to play candy crush 
  • 4) Sam gets homesick & being on the road without visitors is hard
  • 5) My husband actually loves Albus like I do 😘
  • 6) Home workouts are cue for my dog to attack me  
  • 7) Greys Anatomy reruns never get old 
  • 8) Living with my best friend makes my phone battery last longer 
  • 9) I need NEED to decorate for Christmas asap (camper shopping must happen soon)
  • 10) Sam is the hardest-working and most selfless person I know 

Innocent 

You told me it was alright

You whispered in my ear 

As you moved down

“Tell me what you want”

Shame bubbles in my chest 

Confusion filled my mind 

A hole ripped in my heart

The shaking began

You whispered in my ear 

Another lie of theft 

Forever damaged, forever guilt

You finished, leaving behind a child 

You whispered in my ear 

With no disgust 

You stole my innocence 

Losing childhood 

Breaking all trust 

Mental Health

Have you ever had someone say, “have you prayed about it,” and in that moment you want to reach across the table and punch them right in the face? It’s not that you don’t believe in the power of prayer or even if you don’t, it’s not that you want to bash on that person’s beliefs. It’s that we live in this world where people think mental health is something that can be fixed or cured by changing our views. They say “have you thiught about the things you have to be thankful for?” Or “maybe you’re just living in the past and you should start focusing on the now.” I don’t think people intentionally say these things to hurt us, even if it feels like that. For me, my depression isn’t something that can be “cured” with a simple change of view. My depression is a lack of serotonin in my brain. It’s my body’s inability to produce the happy gene on its own. Somedays I feel more than overjoyed and ecstatic about life. Other days I cry nonstop and can’t function. I take meds, I exercise, I pray, I eat healthy, I journal, see counselors, and talk about my past to try and overcome the skeletons. It doesn’t seem like I get better and that’s okay. I’ve found ways to cope and deal with the suicidal thoughts. Mental health doesn’t have to have a stigma and it’s okay to not know what to say to someone who suffers from a mental health disorder. Ask them how you can help instead of assuming things about them or the disorder. Pray for them if that’s what you believe in or wish them good karma… but please don’t make them feel worse about their mental health or their inability to “get over it.”